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Unraveling Pope Francis and the Mystery of the Absent Nuns

As I get older, I find that I know even less about everything than I thought I did, but in this case I’m pretty sure I’m smarter than the Pope.

Or more likely, he was joking in his voicemail when he asked what was keeping a group of Carmelite nuns so busy they couldn’t take his call.

They are Carmelite nuns. It was mid-day. They were saying the mid-day Divine Office, a prayer all fully professed religious must say every day or it’s a for real, straight up SIN. Like a serious enough sin that if one nun is a coma, the other nuns will go in and pray it with her, just in case.

Which is an extremely boring answer to an extremely interesting question.

To make up for inserting tedious facts into this conversation, I’m sharing the story of why if you had tried to call me, one Friday morning when I was a nun, I wouldn’t have been able to come to the phone. This is also 100 percent fact, but I think you’ll find it a bit more interesting since I was pretty much the world’s worst nun.


This is me Sister Mercy, when I was a Missionary of Charity aspirant. Do I look innocent? I was trying.

This is me Sister Mercy, when I was a Missionary of Charity aspirant. Do I look innocent? I was trying.

“…every minute of our nun lives was spent scrutinizing our actions for selfish motives, or engaging in some type of manual labor or self-flagellation. I guess the idea was that if we just worked hard enough, and hated ourselves enough, we wouldn’t have much time or energy for any particular friendships.

“Particular friendship” is the convent euphemism for nun on nun action. The measures they took to prevent this type of behavior bordered on ludicrous. We were exhausted. We smelled awful. We wore multiple layers of complicated clothes. At 4:40 a.m. it was completely dark when the first bell of the morning rang to wake us, but we could only get dressed after we had pulled the top sheet completely clear of our respective beds and each nun had created a makeshift tent to cover every single one of our sexy body parts. Even our hands were supposed to be under the sheet. At that time of morning, who could have a lucid thought, let alone a lusty one?

But despite the harshness of our life, or perhaps because of it, I became more deeply in touch with my sapphic nature. The constant and close proximity to these other tough-ass nuns, united by a deep purpose and living life on the most basic level I found I was as horny as…well, a repressed baby dyke in a convent, I suppose.

When we were supposed to be meditating I’d be imagining a very fey Jesus wearing a pink chiffon scarf in addition to his hipster sandals and white robe and leaning me over just…so. One of Sister Milagro’s (our aspirant mistress) favorite lunch table conversation starters was, “How did you experience Jesus this morning in meditation sisters?” I was always stuck for an answer. Jesus was supposed to be our spouse, but I was fairly certain that didn’t include gender bending physical fantasies that might have even included a rear entry component.

Talking when I was supposed to be praying

Maybe if I would have talked less and prayed more, my convent experience would have been more successful. Maybe.

I wasn’t the only nun who dealt with carnal feelings that emerged out of our distinctly spiritual life. One morning when I was cleaning the upstairs bathrooms in the part of the convent that was used a homeless shelter, I was bent a the tub, scrubbing it with a tiny bit of steel wool. I straightened up to rinse my hands –the lye and Ajax combination that the nuns swore by was lethal to both lungs and skin– and felt a presence very close behind me.

It was Sister Maria Shanista, a professed sister with whom I was often paired for visiting. She leaned into me and whispered “Where is it? The woman’s one.”

I stopped scrubbing.

“The woman’s one?”

She pointed to an area near the middle of her body. At first I thought she was gesturing to the large crucifix the professed sisters all wore tucked into their waistband. But then she added, “People touch it,” she said, “and it feels nice?”

I didn’t want to admit that I had been touching mine to make it feel nice every spare moment I had since I’d walked in the convent doors. Sometimes even during the fifteen minute nap we took every afternoon. Even though we slept in a collective dorm with beds merely inches apart, I huddled under my seven blankets believing they concealed my actions.

I nodded in response to Sister Shanista’s not quite a question query.

“That’s a mortal sin,” she whispered., very very close into my ear.

I wasn’t sure if she was accusing me or asking me. Convent guidelines held that we were supposed to pray the rosary aloud whenever we were working in order to, “elevate our minds to God and help avoid useless chatter,” or, as in this case, to keep an aspirant from getting herself into even deeper shit than she was already in by preventing impromptu anatomy lessons.

I pulled out my rosary.

“The first sorrowful mystery,” I began, aware of the irony of my choice. The first sorrowful mystery, I thought, was not The Agony of Jesus in the Garden, but rather that this thirty-year-old woman did not know where her clit was.

BOX SORROWFUL MYSTERYAs I started the Apostles’ Creed, I realized could no longer see Sister Shanista’s right hand.

She had parted her clothing and was clearly groping around trying to locate the topic of conversation. Since we wore no less than four layers between our skin and the outside world, this was not an easy feat. She was close enough to touch me, and she reached over, grabbed my chin hard and made me look at her.

“Where?” she demanded.

“I don’t know, everyone is different. But it’s not far from where you pee. It feels different when you touch it than any other place on your body.”

And then, without realizing it, I made that two-fingered universal gesture for female masturbation which even if done somewhat hesitantly is a very good communicator of the type of touch one’s clit generally needs to provide immediate pleasure. Especially when you’re working with a very motivated learner, which apparently I was.

I watched Sister Shanista’s face turn pink in surprise and pleasure and I suddenly found myself sitting on the side of the tub because my legs were shaking. Because I didn’t know what else to do, I resumed praying the rosary.

I was not even through the first decade when Sister Shanista became completely silent, her whole body turned very red and her face took on a very specific countenance. That look was familiar, I realized, because she had the same expression when she took communion.

We made very awkward eye contact for several moments.

“For the love of Jesus,” she said, her face still very, very red.

“For the love of Jesus,” I agreed.

We resumed cleaning and praying the rosary, and never spoke of it again.

In the eyes of the Church, my actions were definitely a mortal sin. But my conscience tells me it was a corporal work of mercy.


Want to hear more about my life as a nun? You can read Sunday Morning In the Convent, Mostly In Pictures right here. But for the whole hilarious sad and sometimes sexy affair, you should get your own copy of Freak of Nurture.

Six Dubiously Constructive Ways to Beat Blizzard Boredom

If you’ve read my latest book Freak of Nurture, or been around me for more than 45 seconds, you already know that I grew up in Wisconsin pre-global warming. Thus, there was snowcover from November until March, I sometimes went to school on a snowmobile, and a polar bear was my best friend.*

My EXTREME FAMILY: SIBLING EDITION (I am the youngest of seven) and I knew that if we bugged our parental units too much, they’d be reminded “Hey, what’s the use of having a herd of kids if you’re not using them for free labor.” We would be then assigned some horrible chore that only rural parents can devise for their offspring, invariably involving muck, poo (those are related in some cases), cleaning, clearing, being outside in the subzero cold or even–one long winter–handling a great deal of rapidly rotting homemade sauerkraut.

So we became tiny annoying experts at creating ways of amusing ourselves, something that has come in handy since I’ve been in seclusion while in recovery from my (hilarious) knee replacement.  If you were you not blessed with a childhood in which the penalty for muttering “I’m bored” was a chore that might lead to acquiring antibiotic resistant cabbage pox, don’t worry. I’ve got some suggestions to share with you:

1. Bundle up, head outside to where local children have been playing and turn their snow angels into snow devils. There are lots of ways to do this: you can apply food coloring, paprika, or laminated witty evil captions, or my favorite, simply lay down a piece of beef liver where the snow angel’s liver would be. Don’t bother to do this where pets are permitted off leash or you will be engaged in an different activity called Turning Snow Angels Into Places Where Places Dogs Fight and Every Dog Owner In the Neighborhood Gets Mad at You.

Do not worry about traumatizing children with this action. Children love gross things, even That Certain Type of Park Slope Child Who Has Had the Soul Parented Out of Them. In fact, these children especially need access to practical jokes involving rotting meat. Your action alone may save them from a lifetime of insufferability. Which is not a word but should be.

2. While you are waiting outside to see if local bloggers to come take photos of your snow devils and make you an anonymous viral superstar, you’ll need something to occupy your brain besides: “I am so so so so so so cold. Is this weather cold enough to kill me? Will it lower my sperm count? Make me lose IQ points? Develop a cat allergy? Why did my parents get divorced? Was it because my snow angels weren’t good enough?Man, it’s so cold” etc etc.

Your next boredom fighter task is pick a sibling and craft a conversation in which you can drive them to homicidal rage using an extremely limited number of texts. For example:


3. Frozen? Bloggers never showed? Go back inside and watch Will and Grace with your friend who has a doctorate in queer studies.

Okay that’s a joke.

You should never ever ever ever watch Will and Grace with your friend who has a doctorate in queer studies.

4. Text all your friends asking to borrow their netflix streaming login and passcode . Log in but don’t create a separate username. Then pick 20 movies that your friend would HATE and watch the first five minutes of each of them. Assign them a five star rating.

Their Netflix recommendation algorithm will be off forever.

It's one thing for Netflix to think you like Spongebob Squarepants. It's another thing to be accused of finding him "hopelessly romantic."

It’s one thing for Netflix to think you like Spongebob Squarepants. It’s another thing to be accused of finding him “hopelessly romantic.”

5. Watch  the pilot of Showtime’s  new series Masters of Sex with the audio muted while you stream the audio from any episode of Big Bang Theory. Much like the mystery that is Amazing Grace sung to the tune of the Gilligan’s Island theme song**, you will be amazed at the nerd-synchronicity that results.

6. Make affirmation cards that will help your friends work through their most difficult faults and foibles. Snail mail the cards to them.

Anonymously. Of course.

Anonymously. Of course.

Once you’ve affirmed all your friends, move along to your favorite celebrities.

Obviously this card is headed to Miley Cyrus.

Obviously this card is headed to Miley Cyrus.

If these don’t seem practical, you know what else you could do? Just go ahead and order Freak of Nurture. If you get the ebook it’s only like three clicks between you and starting the first chaper! It’s really funny, and also kind of sad, and maybe you will absolutely hate parts of it. But I promise you will not be bored.

*Only one of these claims is a lie.

**It really works. Try it.

Arrive Alive: The Fine Art of Family Holiday Survival

During my early years of queerdom I spent more holidays than I can count without getting a nervous twitch in my eye traveling from Philadelphia to Daytona Beach trek with my older sister, her husband and their two kidlets. The trip, often in a compact car, led to the Florida house that my mom shared with her husband at the time, a retired army colonel everyone including my mom, referred to as The Colonel.

The house was adorned with a wide assortment of dead animal skins on the floor and a number of historically significant weapons on the walls. It was a fun place. As we snaked down Interstate 95, past billboards for a Noted South Carolina Racist Attraction and others advertising “Carnivore Heaven Bar and Grill,” or “Agorama: The World’s First Agricultural Theme Park,” I would find myself sweating more with each passing mile. I would crane my head out the car window, scanning the highways for rainbow bumper stickers or any sign of Queer Life and remind myself of my mantra:

I CAN SURVIVE THE HOLIDAYS WITH MY FAMILYMany years and thousands of dollars of therapy later, I fancy myself a bit of an expert in the “let’s wrestle some fun out of this dysfunction” arena. And despite the warnings of my friends, therapist(s), exes and perhaps even my pets…CAT ADVICE BIGGERI have been known to sometimes spend winter holidays with my huge, alcoholic family of origin. I have tools now though, so don’t try this at home. Or if you must try this at (your) home, observe these important survival guidelines to decrease the statistical likelihood of family gatherings ending with tears or bloodshed:

SURVIVAL HINT 1: As much as possible, avoid the more intense family interactions associated with holiday group meals.

These meals can be a breeding ground for cutlery mishaps, eating disorder relapses and semi-drunken brawls. Taking a job such as firefighter, emergency medical technician, undertaker or nurse practically guarantees that you can always use the excuse, “I’m so sorry I can’t make it but [sigh] I have to work.” If your family insists on having holiday meals locally to accommodate your oh-so-busy schedule, clip your little cousin’s walkie talkie to your belt and explain you’re “on call.” Run out right after the turkey is served.

If you’re not able to excuse yourself, at the very least avoid coming out to your family in the midst of holiday meals. At least not spontaneously. That rush of warmth you thought you felt could just be heartburn from your aunt Sophie’s bacon and pepperoni dressing. The resulting indigestion you might experience would probably not be life-threatening, but could indeed feel like it.

In a pinch, you can also feign intestinal disorder that requires constant trips to the bathrooms. This is a fail-safe way of avoiding troublesome, boring or even insulting topics of conversation. For example, for many years every time my family gathered, my grandmother liked to tell the story about how lucky she was to have survived her bout with cancer, since the disease was caught at such a late stage.

“I didn’t go to the doctor right away about the pain in my side,” my grandma would explain, “because I thought I was just sore from carrying Kelli around. She was such a big fat baby.”


“Hey,” my grandma would say, “where’s Kelli?”


You get the picture.

SURVIVAL HINT #2: Anticipate the end of a conversation before you initiate it.

One year I asked The Colonel over pumpkin pie if the bayonets mounted on the living room wall were real. “For chrisskaes yes,” he exclaimed, “what good is a bayonet if it’s never been used to kill anyone?” I learned something very important that day. If you can’t handle the answer, don’t ask the question.

PROTIP:  Did you know you can even prepare family friendly conversational prompts in advance?  For example, I have a slight suspicion my mother won’t want to hear about my accidental three-way at Atlanta Pride. But I’m sure she’ll love my stories about discovering drag culture in rural Wisconsin. Write these safe conversational topics on an index card if you can’t commit them to memory.

Is it a tad awkward to recite “Colonel, would you like to chat about the win to loss ratio of [insert name here], a local sports team?” Sure, but if the alternative is chatting about “those damn [insert name of random liberal group or endangered species],” it’s worth both the awkwardness and the effort. Studies have confirmed that the average queersexual can listen to only a limited number of anti-harp seal diatribes before going completely bananas.

SURVIVAL HINT ##3: Work with the family denial system, not against it.

Remember what you learned from the friendly neighborhood dyke lifeguard? If you’re caught in a rip tide, don’t try to swim out of it. The riptide is always stronger than you are, and you’ll tire yourself out before you can reach the beach. Swim parallel to a riptide. At some point a topographical feature on the shore will cause its strength to ebb and you’ll be able to break away.

This same principle applies when dealing with what could be called a “reduced truth” family situation. For example, my mom had a tubal ligation nineteen months before I was born. In the 60’s, the tubal ligation procedure involved only the clamping of the fallopian tubes, rather than actually severing them.

My brother, thinking I was already aware of this fact, mention it off-handedly at a Christmas gathering the year I turned thirty. I did some quick Internet research. According to a CDC report done over a ten year period from 1965 until 1975, out of the 365 post-tubal ligation women the CDC studied, 143 became pregnant at least once after the procedure. In other words, 1 in 155 tubal ligations were unsuccessful.

It seemed strange my mom had never mentioned my special status as a 1 in 155er. We weren’t a timid clan by any stretch of the imagination. One of the explicitly stated family rules was, “Remember kids, we don’t give each other the finger in front of grandma.” My biological father was of the genre of dads that thought great fun on a road trip involved farting and then locking the windows of the family station wagon. I couldn’t understand the silence over this simple medical fact. I decided to chat with my mom about this. The day after Christmas, I accompanied her on an early morning drive to pick up donuts for all the visiting relatives. I had only managed to say, “Mom, you could have told me about the tubal lig—” before my mom turned the steering wheel sharply to the right while simultaneously hitting the brakes. This sent the car skidding onto the gravel shoulder. “I can’t believe how close that car came to hitting us,” she said, genuinely breathless. It was 7 a.m. on a Saturday morning and we were driving on a deserted stretch of highway in rural Florida.

There was no car for miles.

I nodded and agreed that, indeed, who could believe how close that car came to hitting us. I can guess my mom’s motivation for not wanting me to know that she had tried very hard to prevent my birth. She was worried that if I knew the truth it would shatter my self-esteem. On the contrary, knowing the truth resolved a lot of questions I had, most notably, “Why did my parents have one more kid?” Also, knowing that I was a direct result of a super fierce-ass egg fighting its way through a banded fallopian tube filled me with indescribable joy.

Egg not shown actual size.

Egg not shown actual size.

It’s like being born with a protest sign in hand: “I AM here! And I AM queer! Guess we’re all going to have to get used to it!”

All the same I couldn’t resist tormenting my mother about this absurd situation just a bit.

For the next Christmas I may or may not have ordered her this tee shirt, directly from the Planned Parenthood website.

TUBAL LIGATION TEE SHIRTSee? Navigate within the confines of the family denial system, not against it.

Of course, if you’re bringing your partner along to spend some quality time with your family of origin, the ordeal becomes more complicated. Positive outcomes, however, are not impossible.

 SURVIVAL TIP #4:  Don’t introduce your partner to your family at a holiday gathering from which there is no easy escape.

Family vacations might be okay for first time partner-family introductins, if you’re going down the shore and can join the traveling carnival set up by the boardwalk if things get really out of control. But if you’re planning a winter Pocono weekend trip with your entire extended family, a single snowstorm could throw the whole interaction deep into the unmanageable zone.

SURVIVAL TIP # 5:  Warn your partner—if you so desire—about the little eccentricities of your family, but don’t expect to have warned them about the right things.

For example, because I!am both a registered nurse and a registered worrywart, I am known amongst my friends as “Safety Monitor Dyke.” Back in the day, I was frequently (and inexplicably) the only person who brought a fire extinguisher to the Lesbian Avengers’ flame eating demonstrations.

One Christmas my partner watched my cousins (who had each polished off a six pack of Old Milwaukee) head into the woods, chainsaws and axes in hand. She turned to me with a stunned expression “what are they doing?” I replied, “chopping firewood, guess.” She was completely horrified by this blatant affront to personal safety, but I was completely accustomed to it.

SURVIVAL TIP #6: Consider carefully your partner’s view of your family. Their objectivity may shed light into some very dark corners.

For example, in the past ten years I!have been involved in many useless arguments about the souls of cartoon characters. This is because at some point during every holiday gathering, my oldest sister authoritatively announces, “Smurfs are a satanic force from hell.”


“No,” I would say, “the Smurfs are merely annoying. There is no evidence they are a satanic force from hell.”

After this heated exchange one year, my partner asked if I might “perhaps choose battles a little more wisely?” Although I was initially resistant, I realized she did have a point. After all, who appointed me Executive Director of the Cartoon Characters Defense League? Nowadays, I let the little blue bastards take care of themselves.

Which brings me to…

SURVIVAL TIP # 7:  Accept that there is only so much reality you can interject into any given conversation.

Two Christmastimes ago, my mom once insisted, as she ladled gravy onto my sister’s mashed potatoes, that the technician from the nail salon where she has her nails done reported that she “feared for her life” after Obama elected.

I made the mistake of asking why.

Because, said my mom, “people were fornicating on the streets.”

Why would people fornicate on the streets?Is it possible that happiness at the outcome of an election results in a desire to have sex in public? For a group of people? For anyone?

How did the nail tech know this and even if it were true, why would it make her afraid for her life?

I didn’t ask any of these questions. The gap between sense and nonsense was just too wide.

Instead I simply observed “Mom, you should not be getting your nails done by the KKK” and let it go at that.

FINALLY, TIP # 9: Refrain from responding to your partner’s requests to pass the mashed potatoes with “Yes Mistress.”

Especially if you would normally do so within the privacy of your own home.

Just trust me on this one.


This cornucopia of dubious advice is excerpted and slightly adapted from Kelli’s book of humorous and essays FREAK OF NURTURE. If you’d like to read more about Kelli’s family, her life as a nun or her ability to blow air out through the bottom of her eyes, read some more excerpts from FREAK OF NURTURE here and then order your own paperback or ebook.

If you’d like to read some genuinely helpful and somewhat less sarcastic advice about techniques to get through the Holidays, check out Bevin Branlandingham’s A GREAT WAY TO DEAL WITH YUCKY FEELINGS: EMOTIONAL FREEDOM AKA TAPPING.


Coming soon: Kelli Dunham’s first ever ecourses!

In anti-celebration of Genocidal White Dude Day…

In response to Genocidal White Dude Day, here’s a video share of a story from Freak of Nurture about some kids who responded to creepy colonialism with hilarious art.

Writing Easy When The Subject Matter Is Hard

NOTE: I use Grammarly’s plagiarism checker because there might not be an original thought under the sun, but there’s definitely original and stolen ways to say them!


Recently a friend who read FREAK OF NURTURE asked me to tell her “how I did it.”

“Did what?” I asked with a sliver of defensiveness, thinking she might mean “how did you make so make dubious decisions which led to so many of the stories of the book?”

Silly me.

What she really meant was “how did you write about all the shitty stuff that happened to you in many of the stories of the book.”

Slightly different question.

Unfortunately I’m not sure I know the answer to the latter any more than do I the former, but perhaps I have a few tricks. Or maybe they’re tips. I’m not really so tricky like that .

 Kelli’s Surefire Might Work But Might Not Work Tips for Writing About

Bad Stuff That Happened To You Without Losing Your Mind Further, More, or Completely

#1—REMEMBER PTSD IS A REAL THING. Yup, it’s got a DSM code and everything and the government spends money studying it so you know it’s got to be legit. Respect the power of words, and how crafting and creating narratives can mess with your head.

Seriously, I know from PTSD. I was a nun.

Seriously, I was a nun. So I know from PSTD, on both the giving and receiving end.

#2—COMMIT TO CREATING BEYOND YOUR COMFORT LEVEL. If something bad happened to you and you want to turn it into art, that’s amazing. And the end result might also be amazing. But it’s not necessarily going to be easy to get there (see tip #1) and so you have decide that creating something is more important than feeling good, or even okay.

#3—CONSIDER IF YOUR LIFE IS STABLE ENOUGH TO ATTEMPT A HARD PROJECT. If you just broke up with your boyfriend and had to move back into your parent’s basement which they had been using to house their rare incontinent ferret collection, maybe it’s not the time to start your memoir about your time in a abusive commune/ hostage stand off / religious cult. Or maybe it is, what the hell do I know. Point is, consider your current situation before you tackle your past situations.



#4—BE AWARE THAT NOT ALL HORRIBLE THINGS ARE INHERENTLY INTERESTING. Include all the horrible details in your first draft, if that works for your process. But since this isn’t your journal, commit to writing many drafts before your work will be publishable. And yes, that includes on tumblr and your blog.

Not even your livejournal. Or my livejournal. Because it's no longer 2005

Not even your livejournal. Or my livejournal. Because it’s no longer 2005

#5—WORK WITH AN EDITOR YOU TRUST. Ideally someone who has suffered more than you, otherwise you might want to punch them in the head.

#6—DO YOUR HARDEST WORK IN THE PRESENCE OF OTHER PEOPLE. That might be at a coffeeshop, or at a friend’s house, or a co-working place you rent by the day or the month. Or home with your room-mates around. You won’t necessarily want or need someone holding your hand, but it’s good to have humans around to remind you that you’re basically okay or at least still alive and breathing.

#7—KEEP IN TOUCH WITH HOW YOU’RE USING SUBSTANCES. In the past I would have said “don’t be an ass, staying up all night drinking whiskey and pecking away at the computer won’t turn you into Hemingway, it will just turn you into an alcoholic.” And I would say generally that’s true. But I know there are some people who tackle their demons equipped with weed or alcohol and it works for them.

#8—HAVE DEADLINES. Deadlines that someone other than you knows about.

#9–WORK SOMEPLACE PRETTY. Or if it feels better to you, someplace really really ugly, some place that matches the mood of what you’re writing. Just be aware of the physical environment.

#10—CREATE OUT OF ORDER. I wrote the first draft of Pudding Day (the one person show about the death of my first partner, which ultimately became a chapter in Freak of Nurture) in chronological order. It felt like losing her all over again. When a few years later my second partner Cheryl died, I realized I needed to mix it up a little, so I wrote about her death first, then our meeting, then her illness. I spent more time editing, but less time managing my own emotional upheaval. Mostly.

#11—ACKNOWLEDGE THAT NOT EVERYONE IS YOUR ENEMY. I know I know, that sounds like an asshole thing to say to someone trying to write about hard shit. But let’s say you’re crafting an essay about how a huge boulder fell on you for Huge Rocks Today Magazine. You can write about your own injuries, and how mean the doctor in the emergency room was to you, what you learned, what you didn’t learn, how mad you are that you stood underneath the boulder, or even how much you hate the person who tricked you into standing underneath the boulder. But if you spend 500 words on how stupid the boulder is, tedium ensues. Many stories and situations have a boulder, don’t give too much time to yours or you lose the reader.

#12—YOU CAN WRITE LIKE HELL ABOUT SOMETHING THAT HURT LIKE HELL and still sometimes people won’t get it. But you created something, so guess what, you win.

PS Kelli will be reading from FREAK OF NURTURE in New York on September 25th at the VP Reading Series, and in Philadelphia on September 26th at William Way Center.  Or come watch Kelli and Red Durkin as they record their CDs (Kelli’s will be called Trigger Warning) on October 11th in Bushwich, BK.